So something happened this last Sunday....I finally let God love me!
What I have not been able to figure out was why my heart has been hurting so much. There are many perfectly good reasons why I might be hurting now but there were moments I thought I might go insane because I had no rest from the pain. It was never meant to be that way.
All the while, I know God was gently asking me if He could just hold me and because my picture of Him became so skewed over the past 2 years, I pushed His loving arms away.
I had no idea just how relentlessly God was pursuing me until halfway into the worship service, I felt the overwhelming urge to go and kneel with my face to the ground. As I knelt, my ears lit on fire and I wept. I always know when the Holy Spirit falls on me because my ears feel like they are on fire. I cried and cried as I finally let everything on this earth go and ran into God's arms and asked Him to hold me and never let me go. He just kept telling me how much He loved me and I finally believed Him.
It's taken me so long to get to this place but I feel peace in my spirit once more. I now trust God with all that I am and all that I will be some day, and I walk in His
love everyday. He has overwhelmed me with His love and I am completely His. Nothing else matters....in the light of His love....really...nothing matters.
Love,
Lori
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